Every one of us has a shadow side, our conscious, a place of golden reason, has an unconscious, a place of dark instincts. I dance as a god, in my freedom of choice and cavort as a devil in my dark intrigues. I am beautiful as a Buddha or Christ, radiating from the Solar logos, and stalk on my belly in swamps of emotional dark secrets, held deep within my monster/ Tyrannosaurs mind; I Am the instinctual super-predator survivor who kills all that is deemed threatening.
We are the Angels "who fell to earth", all alight with plans for expanding and liberating life; we are the demon progeny of gods/aliens and "women of men", who scorch the earth for ambitious reasons based on fear of need. We are Beautiful Monsters, i.e. Nefillim.
We are the Angels of generosity, who give millions and build so that all may be fed, free and healthy. We are Demons, who invest billions and build weapons of mass destruction and who believe genocide is an answer to our self imposed misery. Therefore, we have declared ourselves the union of Light and Shadow.
The Devil and The Christ is Us, dancing in a spiral of love or disgust but always dancing. Welcome to my heart felt heaven, and sit on the throne of hell; of my self-absorbed suffering that blames the "other" for my pain.
Every tree casts a shadow and the Qabalistic Tree of Life, is no exception. On one side of the Universe, is light reflected into being; therefore a dark matter mirror reflecting image.
As in all mirrors, the "other side of the mirror" is unreflected light, darkness and therefore unseen things of dark energy/emotion, i.e. The Shadow Universe. It is our psychic Womb. For those who build their reflections in limited star light, are not of the star light, but rather of the Unlimited light that is dark, unseen; the Abyss and therefore mysterious. Is not the manipulator of clay statuary, other than clay? Is not the driver of a car, other than car?
I love, and I hate. I fear and I go where "angels fear to tread". My dark emotion "of tooth and claw" dances with the lovely light heart of the innocent. I keep both. I love to love, and I love to stalk and hunt. For to be whole self----requires light and shadow.
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Through the Sephiroth of Daath ( Hebrew word meaning-Knowledge), my Soul has entered this Universe of Life and Light and has therefore "eaten the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge". To myself, I am a shadow. I know that I shall never really ever totally know myself, for I am of the Unlimited light; as a psyche, I have no end, I am "unseen", a Macrocosm. So I must make up myself upon the stage of smoke and mirrors; a microcosm. Therefore, I must imagine myself and then I become what I Imagine in order "to live"----can there be a greater justice? You are what you think!
Yes, I know my greatest enemy, is myself. How I define myself, creates the "self-reflection" of my thought. Thought is the "first material" of creation, and being is the "truth made manifest". I must know my darkest mind, to know enlighten mind and to be whole, I must cast a shadow.
Therefore, as a Qabalist, or a Tantric, I had to learn the darkest secrets of SELF. I had to step into the mindset of putrefaction, of death, of terror, of fear filled imagination and dance with demons, only to find out the truth of us. We are the Daemon Kings/Queens, who rule all other demons, even Angels serve us! We are Elohim of the Nefillim, who rule all that is elemental. We are either Divine manipulation of all that is created or we are devilish destroyer's of all that is before us. All that is required to be a demonic presence is ignorance; to not "know thyself"! Our own world history proves this!
The Titans that warred with the "gods" never died, they are us! The "gods" just ran off and left us to our own devices and as all who flee, declared themselves the victors!
So gleefully I dance into the darkness, as if I am the Hermit of the Major Arcana, who holds his own lantern of Son-light, and I hear the scampering of the dwellers of darkness as they flee my joyful glare and I laugh at the comedic fear of the superstitious! I AM ME---a Child of the Divine Creative. I am the Inheritor of this Universe of Image, to even believe that there is anything greater than our "freedom to be", is to not believe in the Divine's Word.
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Therefore, the next series of blogs shall compare the Thoth Tarot, created by Aleister Crowley and Lady Freda Harris and the Shadow Tarot of Linda Falorio. Ms Falorio, has faithfully traveled the "tunnels of Set", "worm holes in the dark Psyche" to the "other side" of the mirror, i.e. The Void. She has place upon card stock, what she experienced and has called it the Shadow Tarot, which began with Aleister Crowley and is mentioned in his Equinox series of books. All of which shall be gone into more detail in the forth coming blogs. The Shadow side of THE FOOL is AMPRODIAS, which will be the first blog comparison in this series.
However fanciful, or awe struck, her cards are delightfully dark, mysterious and enjoyable. In truth, I have faced many so called "demons, djinn and Loa" below and above the Pleroma (lower and higher astrals) and they all called me "lord". We are not what you think we are! Fear not and claim your Divinity-----we all are the many faces of the Divine Creative, i.e. the Child of God, and all other creations know us as "gods"/Elohim, i.e Princes and Princesses of our Divine parents.
Do you dare to find out the Truth of you? Can you be the Beautiful Monster that you are? Or do you wish to continue to be the witless minion of "another's" ambition?
Pusillanimous invertebrates, need not apply!
For I am Dragon; a beautiful monster and I declare my inheritance!
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