The Thoth Tarot-Key 17- The Star & The SpellCaster'sTarot-Key17-The Star:
The Tarot Star, traditionally refers to the zodiacal sign Aquarius, the
Water Bearer. The picture on the Thoth Key 17, represents the Egyptian Goddess Nuit, the
Lady of the Stars. Nuit is rarely shown in colors other than Black or
Dark indigo, because She represents "Before the veil of Light was created".....in other words, She is the Dark Womb, the Dark/ Alma-Mater/ Matter"from whose breasts flows the Milky way".
The fact that the Ancient Gnostic knew there was a Dark Force that
birthed and nurtured the Stars should peek the interest of any quantum
physicist who has discovered that the "Quanta"(sub atomic particles)
appear to have an intelligence.
The Star card figure
is shown as a anthropomorphic figure, to verify through art, the
fact that She is depicted as a feminine force that connects the Macrocosm and the
Microcosmic creation. She is Nuit the Mother of "Horus in manifestation". The Sun within ourselves, is Horus, Christos, Buddha and/or our Phontonic Solar Psyche.
On the Thoth Tarot Card, She is shown as bearing two cups, one golden cup held high above her head from which she pours the "ethereal water" upon it (in ritual this is symbolized by a mixture of milk, oil and blood). The other cup is Silver, from which She pours the *Amitra, the immortal liquor of her life, pouring it into the Great Sea of Binah ( 3rd Sephiroth called "Understanding") that is illustrated as conjunct to a shore of fertile earth.
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[ Amitra of the Indian philosophers, the Nepenthe and Ambrosia of the Greeks, the Alchahest and Universal Medicine of the Alchemists, The Nectar. The Mother of the Blood of the Grail .]
You may note that the Thoth cups
represent the shape of breasts, while the SpellCaster's Tarot depicts her pouring water from two vessels that forms a pool, on which she stands. This is a more traditional rendition of the Star, hiding the deeper meanings of the Major Arcane, as most Occult lodges kept the knowledge in their own rituals.
However, the
two breasts or cups is also a more exoteric tradition of tarot art, because the ancient
astronomer priests or priestesses, believed that Stars were formed from
the "milk of her breasts" and it is written: " The milk of the Stars from her paps; yeah, the milk of the stars from her paps".
The Milky way,
is named so, because of our edge on view, was seen as a river of sparkling life
giving Goddess milk, by the ancients. To the Egyptians it was the out
flowing milk of the Heavenly Cow, i.e.,
Hathor. Here we see a
blending of the Goddess Hathor, "The Cow Goddess", into the later
goddess name of Nuit. The Goddess Nuit has also been called, "Nothingness with Twinkles....".
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To the ancient Greeks, the Moon Cow was
Io or
Europa or
Hera. The Greek word
gala, meaning "mothers milk",is the root word for galaxy.
The
4 rivers of paradise copied in the bible as 4 streams of Eden, that
emanated in 4 directions, where first known as the 4 Rivers of Paradise
that flowed from the 4 teats of the Moon Cow. The Arcadian name for the
milky way was Hiddagal, meaning "river of the Divine Lady", became the stream Hiddekel, (Genesis 2:14). The 4 rivers in the Garden of Eden (Genesis 2:10–14): Pishon (perhaps the Jaxartes or Syr Darya), Gihon (perhaps the Oxus or Amu Darya), Hiddekel (Tigris).
What is attempted in illustration on the Thoth Deck Star card, and in the art of the SpellCaster's Tarot, is to show the universe in its ultimate elements.
The Celestial globe is behind the Thoth Tarot-Goddess figure showing a
prominent 7 pointed star that represents Venus, declaring the principle
characteristic of Her nature to be love, the 7 pointed star is also
shown as an {7/2} acute heptagram. This Star is also shown in the night sky above the SpellCaster's Tarot goddess figure as a magic {7/3} obtuse heptagram.
In general, a heptagram is any self-intersecting
heptagon (7-sided
polygon).
There are two
regular heptagrams, labeled as {7/2} and >{7/3}, with the second number representing the vertex interval step from a regular
heptagon, {7/1}.[From Wikipedia the free encyclopedia]
The
Thoth Star card shows the manifestation of Nuit on a lower plane is
Binah the Great Mother - The Sea of Life, The fertile Earth, nurtured by
the Ocean of Binah, shown as supporting Roses in the right hand corner
of the picture but between the Sea and the Land is the Abyss, which is
hidden by the clouds, that whirl as her hair.
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[The
Lady of the Rose, the Rose-Mari, is another aspect of the Fertile
Goddess and during the Matriarchal age, there were Priestesses of the
Blood Rose
who were in direct representation of the Great Fertile Mother and stood
for the Wellness of the people. This goes all the way back to Lemuria
and/or the Land of Mu, that has been illustrated on ancient Chinese maps
as shown on a map from
www.moorsgate.com..
The
Left hand upper corner of the Thoth Star card, shows the 7/3 heptagram that
Crowley called the " Star of Babalon" which represents yet another
aspect of the "All Mother goddess", that of the Scarlet Woman (Blood
Rose) the Lady shown in Key 11, Lust, as riding the Lion-Serpent. From
her star issues the curved light of Spiritual/Spiral rays of Photons (Spiral and
Spiritual are both from the Greek word: Spiro. which means -Breath).
She is the Dark Mater, and Heaven itself is no more than a veil before
the face of the immortal Goddess.
Interesting to note here,
is that every form of energy depicted here, is spiral (Spiritual). This
is known as a "Spiral Universe"...we live in a Spiral Galaxy which we
think we discovered just recently. Yet Zoroaster is quoted as saying
," God is he, having the head of a hawk; having a spiral force."
Hawks spiral in the sky as they hunt and also symbolizes the ancient
Egyptian Hawk Headed god Horus. Spiral is also the mathematical
conception of the Universe by the renowned physicist Albert Einstein.
It seems the Metaphysics of Hermetic Tarot, Gnosis, Alchemy, Qabalah,
Tantra etc., are the Quantum physics of today! This is apt, since our Psyche and/or Souls are radiated from the Photon Sun of the Galactic Core and/or "the gala of her breasts".
The viewer may note,
that on the Thoth Star card depiction, only in the lower-silver cup, is
the flowing water of life, shown as rectilinear forms, rather than
the spiral flow from the upper golden cup. This is because of
mankind's insistence on a linear view, that forms a blindness to the
wonder and beauty of the Spiral (spiritual) Universe. We know that
Euclidean geometry depends on the conception of straight lines, but
Riemann, Bolyai, and Lobatchewsky, (Mathematicians) have mathematically
proven that the Parallel Postulate is found to be incapable of proof.
Thus, the straight line has no true correspondence to reality.
I would highly recommend that the True Student of Tarot, get the Book
of Law by A. Crowley....it is more than significant in aiding
understanding the Occult metaphysics which can be compared to
the quantum physics of today. Even the "New" String theory, was foreseen
as the "serpent force" of the ancient meta-physicians.
The Tarot-STAR is known on the Qabalistic Tree of Life, as the inner
Path of Tzaddi. The Hebrew letter
Tzaddi means
fishhook and the Path is the
Path of Meditation. Meditation is the fishhook on this path that properly attaches us to
The Divine Universal Collective Unconscious,
using our imagination. I-magi-nation is than being the proper approach
to this Divine Intelligent Energy for she is the All Mother Intelligence
that makes and nurtures all living image.
As we can see on the Thoth Star Card, there are two streams of Divine Energy:
- One from the Golden Cup -The Solar womb of Souls and;
- One from the Silver Cup -Moon womb of earth forms.
The Divine Energy flows through the Divine Mother to us by the integration of Chokma-Wisdom who is Will to Force- (intuition/feelings for he is Wisdom a feminine noun in Hebrew) and Binah- Understanding who is Will
to Form (intellect/consciousness). These 2 streams of energy are shown
flowing from the vessels of the SpellCaster's Tarot, held by the Divine Feminine image. The blue lotuses in the pool, are the symbols for the Blue Sophia, Greek goddess of wisdom.
Many of us forget that the Imagination is a
"Womb-with-a view"---and
is the Consciousness of the Divine Mother of all Forms. This
forgetfulness, is because we have been taught by our Patriarchal society
that imagination is a world-wind creator of fantasy and to be
considered beneath our rational-worded-linear thought. We have somehow
forgotten the meaning of Image-maker-conscious (imagination)."It's Just your imagination," is a common "put down" theme and uses denial to ignore the fact that:
It's "just" The Divine Creative's Imagination that created all that you can see, hear, feel , smell and touch including YOU! Other than a self-reflection, what else do you think a Self-Image is?
Water is a symbol for the ebb and flow of consciousness , and Binah, is the Vast Sea of the Un-Conscious
(meaning "not of consciousness"), which by meditation, we cast our
consciousness into and thereby find a understanding of the process of
life and death. To communicate with the Goddess of light, love and hope, one need only dream.
In the Thirty Two Paths of Wisdom, by Dr. Paul Foster Case, The Path of Tzaddi is described as the Path of the Natural Intelligence.
To the Student of the Hermetic Qabalah, this suggests that the primal
forces of nature attributed to Netzach (Victory), the sphere of the Elohim who are synonymous with nature itself. You'll need to study the Hebrew word Elohim to understand this in greater detail, but they are called the Gods of Netzach....which means ruling forces. That can be ruled by Man, who is arguably the Elohim Malachim (sons/suns of god) Which
is whom we are as the Soul or Real Person that radiates from the 6th Solar-
Sephiroth-Tiphareth. As physics has proven in the simulation hypothesis; by our observation alone,
we change the observed behavior of electrons, for under the influence of light, electrons change their action from waves to particles! Since our Psyches are of the Photon-quanta side of the "mirror", our observation projects Photons, i.e., light and therefore changes the actions of the observed electrons. We are indeed, Suns of Goddess.
To aid further understanding, the Number 17 reduces to 8, which is the Lust Card-Key 8 in the Thoth Deck, which represents the
conscious control of the Kundalini,
that is both solar and sexual force. I call the Lust Card the image of "
Riding the Dragon", a state of being in conscious union and thus control of
the Divine Frenzy as your life expression. In other-words, the Impersonal Solar Power of
I AM becoming a conscious manifestation of a earthly
Me...a
personal expression of Power. The figure 8 is the magical symbol for
infinity, where 0 has become 8, 2 from a spiral of energy. The Universal
2, Binah and Chokmah, are both of the Fool, who is 0.
This trinity of I AM ME, is
all part of the Greater Mysteries of Tiphareth, the Solar Logos which
is the central Star of our Existence (our Solar Core/Psyche). Only by
controlling the Sexual/Spiral energy in ourselves---the Kundalini
[Lion-Serpent] can we travel the path to Tiphareth. However, this fact
has been perverted by believing that Sexual energy, must be oppressed
(made celebrate) to approach our Christos. This celibate practice is a
perversion of the truth as the function of the Divine Creative and the
practice of ten's of thousands of years worth of Shamans, Tantric and
mystics, suggests otherwise.
We must combine,
through communion of He and She the flowing serpentine force with
willful union of intuition, feelings, and intellect in order to flow to
our Solar Core and stand a True Power of influence in the realm of Alma
Mater.
This Inner Union,
is the mystery of Tantric, Gnostic and Qabalistic practices and what
some may call "Sex-Magic"----or "Sex-Magi". Which is really the Divine's
technological break through of Sex where 1 becomes 2 and joins to
become 3! (Such as, color becomes red, then blue, then joins to become
a color called purple-making 3 colors). 1 is always one, but 2 and 1 is
Three. Three is a plane, from which Self can reflect! Therefore the
Triangle, in its many forms, is deem "magical".
Our ignorance of the Sexual
Communion is not only showing us how the great Mother is disabused by
fear based Patriarchal rule, but that all sexual perversion diverts us
from the path of Tzaddi, and we are unable to control the lust
filled passions of the Divine Frenzy that is all around us and within
us, and therefore become mental, emotional and physical deviates of a
psychosomatic -chaos perpetrated by divisive thinking. Such chaotic passion, makes us
powerless to use our scattered creative forces in an expanding and liberating manner. Just what the bullies of"Divide and Conquer" want, i.e., "those who rule definition", for confused people are easily cowed and therefore, lead.
Great enlightenment comes
to the student who studies this Path and as many before, we realize
that by not understanding the Divine Frenzy within the figure 8----we
become murders, rapist, etc., where violence becomes our sexual-passionate
activity.
The Process of approaching the Solar
Center, is a yoga (yoga means--communion), involving the enervation of
centers of energy (Chakras--means "spinning wheels") which open up our
Energy Centers through the process of meditation, both internal
and sexual. Our body is a magical device of the Solar Logos and its Sun/Son,
the Soul. And as a magician, we as a personal-consciousness, must learn to
operate this device. The first knowledge should be that energy flows
from positive to negative poles. Male is positive polarity in this
world, and female is negative polarity, so once again the figure 8 shows
up to show us the necessary flow between the electric male and magnetic
female. This flow is shown on the Thoth tarot as the flow from the Golden cup of the Sun (he) and the Silver cup of the Moon (she).
As Paul Foster Case stated, about the Path of Tzaddi, "Through it is consummated and perfected the Nature of every existing thing beneath the Sun".
Hence, we can't consummate our perfected nature until we are the perfect marriage of anima and animus on Psychic worlds above and Psychic worlds below...of as above, so below.
When meditation is successful, we find that we don't meditate, but rather we are
meditated into image! We may understand better if we think of
Tiphareth,
The Higher Self/Solar Logos, as a kind of fisherman, who by angling
with the Fishhook of meditation, pulls our personality/self-conscious up
into the Solar Self. From that Higher Perspective our personality can
see that the self-image of form is meditated into existence from
Briah, the Creative World of the Soul.
The formation of the individual consciousness
from the Divine collective unconscious begins from the point of
Netzach, which is the highest level of "personality" while Tiphareth is
the highest level to be reached by personal intellect. The object is to hold a "Holy Mass" where the Personality and the Psyche are joined in
Communion, within the honeymoon suite that is The Human body.
The Tarot Star Card figure, represents the most pure manifestation of the Great Mother Binah at the level of
Real Persona,
preceding enclosure in matter. She is the Same figure found in The
Empress, in her royal regalia; The High Priestess and in The Universe
cards, The Scarlet Woman in the Lust card; However, here She is
unveiled, a naked virgin, further representing Her Venusian purity.
The Star is associated with the love and inspiration sign of Aquarius. In the ancient world, Saturn was said to govern Aquarius, referring us to Binah/Time and The Universe key 21.
Because the Star card represents the universe resolved into its ultimate elements,
it relates to many more Paths than any other card in the deck. Thus, I
recommend getting the text book by Robert Wang---The Qabalistic Tarot ( A
text book of Mystical Philosophy) and studying the many path- Charts on
the Tree of Life , that he presents in the book.
To the Hermetic Qabalist,
the Star card represents the "Lower Eden", from which the Personality
originates and the Emperor, represents "Upper Eden" where the idea of
Fiery Higher Self originates...The Solar Logos. Here to, we see a
relationship of The Star Path (Tzaddi) relating to another Path, that
of the Emperor (Heh).
The Star card also relates to the astrological Planet Venus, which to the ancients was seen as the "Morning and Evening Star", also referred to as Lucifer, the
Most beautiful of all Archangels, referring to the Sephiroth
Tiphareth-Beauty, which is the Solar Logos. Lucifer is not seen as a
underworld figure, but rather the Higher Self and or Real Person (Soul) who owns the human form. However, with proper enforcement of propaganda, you can be made to believe
that "The Higher Self" is a "Savior" who is separate from you; a "you"
who are but a slave to definition supplied by your cultural rulers whose
rule is "black magic", as it depends on the shedding of innocent blood as a form of political policy.
After the " War Lord religions"
(Patriarch) took over cultural programming, the meaning of Beauty
(Synchronicity) became a Underworld Angel who was so narcissistic that
he challenged God; as did the Titans, the children of women and the "gods who from the sky came", challenged the gods of Olympus. We all
must study history and mythology to see how the Jews, Muslims and
Christians took the names of gods and goddesses of other religions
and demonized them, which only contributed to ignorance and lost
self-awareness. The truth is that the Latin word Lucifer (Morning
Star) is similar to the Greek Christos (Sun, also Zeus Christos or Sun
of God) ----both relating to the fiery Sun/Son of God....The Solar
Logos and/or our Higher Self/Psyche/Real Person/Soul.
To aid one
in their skrying/meditation, it is found more power is gathered when
one uses the corresponding things in nature. Therefore:
Thoth Tarot Correspondences: 0-The Fool & key-17-The Star.
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It may be interesting to note that in ancient text, the
"Holy Ghost" was considered to be feminine rather than the masculine concept of masculine, and she was/is known as
Sophia, The Mother and Beloved of the Father. The Star card promotes the image of
Sophia,
while the Fool, promotes the image of the Father. To the ancients, the
Fool (The Green Man) was both wise and "innocent as the children". He is
Joker (Trickster) and Wisdom.
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- Astrological Sign: The Star-Aquarius
- Astrological Planet: The Fool- Uranus
- Key 17-The Star, has the astrological form: I know.
- The Fool has the astrological motion: I seek myself through what I don't know.
- Rune-stones: STAR- Lagaz, the water stone that flows and conducts.
- There are two Rune-stones for the Fool: Mannaz, the name of mankind, the human race , and the self. The other is the blank
rune, called "the unknowable", the name of destiny. That is also why
the Fool is not a key---it is 0, the symbol for infinity, which is
indeed unknowable and has no gateway to unlock. The Fool card can be
placed at the beginning of the Tarot deck or at the end, or both, as can the
Blank rune.
- Primary colors: Violet (purple, lavender).
- The associated Chakra
is the Sixth chakra or the Brow Chakra, which is intuition, light,
color, seeing (also color-seeing as in Auric Seer) thought, information,
meditation, visualization, imagination (The Womb With A View),
spiritual perception, dreams,----the Chakra of purpose and patience.
- Stones and Minerals: Amethyst, sugalite, charoite, siberite ( violet tourmaline), chalcedonies and fluorites of violet hues.
- Musical Notes: Star-A# and for the Fool- E
- Hebrew Qaballah letters: Star-Simple letter- Imagination.
- Fool- Maternal letter- Air
- The Path of the Star--Tzaddi, The Natural Intelligence ( Mother Nature)
- The Path of the Fool-Aleph, The Scintillating Intelligence.
- Plant essences: The Star--Eucalyptus, Fir, Lime, Blue Chamomile.
The Fool- Fennel, Niaouli.
Often the Star card
is associated with the "Mother Nature" of the Universe (The Universe is
Natural----in fact there isn't any Super Natural---there is just parts
of the Universal Collective that is it's Nature, that we don't
understand yet) and the Fool is The Green Man-or Father Nature. It may
help our understanding if we remember that Male is Electric Force and
Female is Magnetic Force, so in essence we are dealing with Universal
Magnetic Unconscious and Universal Electric Consciousness. When both are
united in harmony----We have Sophia, "the whole of spirit". .
The Hebrew story about the letter Tsadeh (Tzaddi)--Meaning; fish-hook.The Path of Tzaddi-Key 17-The Star.
So God created man in His Image, in the image of God He created him; male and female; He created them.
Genesis 1:27
In this short story of the first of two descriptions of human creation, God made male and female at the same time. This is true for time/space and electric-magnetic.
All of us are subtle androgyny, rather than the obvious single sex, as
we all are composed of the energy that flows between and through the
polarities of electro-magnetic (electric is male and magnetic is
female). Also the brain itself has "male and female" halves. Since there
was only One (Kether on the Tree of Life) when two where created from
the one ( Chokmah-Male electric/spiritual fire and Female
Binah--Magnetic-spiritual water) both "became" at once, just as the
figure eight is drawn from one line. The "Image" of God has been argued
by the best, but it can also mean extra-terrestrial "DNA" bonded with
the natural mammalian DNA, a GMO operation done by the "angels that fell
to earth" and/or "those who from the sky came", known as gods to early mankind. [I know that was
unnecessary to bring up but I just love a good debate!]
However, there is no debate about our imagination,
it is as a creative Womb and obviously an active Creative Conscious
nestled in our passive "Unconscious"---the Universal-
Collective-Unconscious being attributed to natural inheritance, i.e.
created before us by Life's quanta experiences, but ours to be at one with.
- All
of us know that particles of energy, quanta became Stars , then planets (Star
detritus) and all were the process of "Energy Conscious" (God)
Self-Awareness . Since we have " Solar-Force Fields" around our bodies
--called the 7 bodies of the human aura and their subtle energy entry
points in the body called -Chakras, we can assume that we were Solar Conscious
states of energy, before we became the operators of a physical state of
energy/ matter body. We call this Solar Presence---Spirit and Soul. It
is a State of Energy Conscious, Psyche, of the Eternal One Energy. That
means we are much more than we think we are. And if you have read
my past blogs, you know that thought itself, is a delusional- trickster
as it is all probabilities and not reality. Before Thought we were, Kether and/or "I Will Be"! And with this giant roar of will, space swirled, and
existence was born as "I AM" , which became "I AM Being" and/or "I AM
ME"! Hence,Becoming the self-conscious Image of the Divine Creative,
(accessing our Solar Conscious state---enlightenment) is the purpose of
the Qaballah (kabala) . In other words, claiming our inheritance from
our Solar Being.
- We all are the combination of both Solar
(fire-Kundalini) Evolution and Planetary Evolution (water)-----we are
Divine Children of the Serpentine Fiery Father and the Serpentine Watery
Mother (made in the Divine's Image). This is usually shown as a red and
blue serpentine energy going up the spine. The Divine Creative
obviously thinks we are Great and I often wonder why some people spend
all their lives seeking greatness when Greatness built each of us
as Itself? It seems to me that "greatness seeking" is like a fish in
the ocean looking for water? Sounds----like mental blindness to me. It
is easy to declare our Greatness; just say "Greatness built me to
express Itself" and then "above all things know thyself", which is a
process of stimulating solar- memory (not in the brain) by studying the
Qaballah or any other mechanism for "enlarging self- awareness". We are
not "brains"....we build them as hardware for software....not as "I Am"
but rather as "I translate myself into Material Experience" (Me) and I dare say, something is lost in that translation.
- The
I Am already exists as immortal-infinite Energy Conscious . That is
another reason why we are created in the Image of Divinity-We are
Solar-Self united with Planetary-Self. We are the Nature of Stars united
with the Nature of Planets! We are Spirit first and bodies (power
tools) second! "I" don't Live in my brain, "I Am Life"---my brain is "alive" and/or a "Me" but Life is beyond it's function, for being a "self-reflection" of Life is its forte. Life is the product of "I AM
Goddess/God", a Union of "Will to Force" (god) and "Will to Form"
(goddess) creating microwaves of Spiral Energy (Kundalini) often called
the serpent force, which is Spiritual ( From the Greek Spiro as
is spiral) "Life-Force" . The symbol of the Fish is the representation
of "the first Matter" which we know as "thought"! The Hook is a
fastener, the thought matter fastened to the Divine Creation and/or
Imagination!
- In Qaballah, Water is consciousness and Fire is the
Solar Logos or Spirit. We are an amazing creation of "I AM Me"! The
Path of Tzaddi, is about the Mysteries of Tiphareth---the mystery of
Beauty and that Mystery lies in the Flow of Kundalini (Solar-sexual
energy) in the Union of Polarities that exist in fire and water; of
Motion and Form. It is my constant understanding, that, "Beauty built me to be Itself"
and I know that as I look around, the Kingdom of Beauty is all around
me. When you understand this beauty-filled sight----you will "know
thyself" and you will appreciate all things and therefore lack nothing.
You will no longer be "a fish (Spirit) in the Ocean (Goddess) looking
for water" ( life) . Rather you will be Life-Ocean who is Alive as " I
AM Me"-fish!
When the Tarot- Star Card-Key 17, is thrown during a reading the querent shall be or will be experiencing:
- Hope, faith and unexpected help for 17 weeks or 17 months.
- Self esteem and confidence contributing to self-efficiency and talent.
- The
querent, upon meditating, shall hear their own song (sound frequency),
becoming harmony and then emoting love, calm and peaceful agility.
- An expanded and liberated personality change is in the works.
- Hope, faith and expected spiritual help combine.
- There is a principle of self esteem and confidence here, maybe even recognition of self sufficiency and talent from others.
- In
the next 17wks or months, the querent will be experiencing an upsurge
in courage to be themselves and in so doing, assisting others in their
self- esteem.
- The querent may be hearing their own song through meditation and moving with love in a calm and peaceful rhythm.
- Opening to the Goddess within.
- Contacting the Dark Universal Collective Unconscious which is the Ocean of Natural Intelligence.
If ill defined by the accompanying cards:
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There can be the experiencing of dreaminess, and deceived hope. This
feeling of fantasy is rare, so basically the querent is or will be,
experiencing freedom from all masks, illusions and restrictions while
being replenished by the pure waters of the Universal Unconscious.
There can be a state of dreaminess, and deceived hope, if ill defined.
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